slow down
i wonder if one day u start to walk faster..n u realise tt i cant floow ur pace..will u slow down?
come to think of what ur grandma said..she may think falling in love now is stupid..but i dun think so..even it is..mayb i am stupid to love u..but i got no regret..cos i know u have been there for me all this while..i know it well..however i cant help but to feel insecure sometime..sometimes i wish i just wan to fall back n rest..but i dun dare..cos i scare..what if one day u leave?i dun wish tt i'll rely on u too much..i dunwan to b dependant on u..thou i wanted to..really..can i rely on u?
von..i know what u might say..just reply here or sms me ba..i hope to know how u feel if u were me..
disappointed?
mon 26/6/06:
today sch reopen..lecture at 8am..so sian..abit sleepy..but no choice..still must attend sch..no clinical lab for this week..u today no sch..msg u the whole day u didnt reply..zzZ..should ask u if u faint at home or what..grandma still the same..but today she keep saying she want to come home..dunno what she thinking..
tue 27/6/06:
today is von's birthday..after sch meet u go HQ to get the roll call book for von..after tt we went to ochard to get her present..but in the end decided to let her choose what she want..after von's attachment..we meet her at bugis mrt station..saw ur grandma..she ask u where u going?u told her tt u going bugis..then she ask with?u say friend..then she ask..not gf?u say no..sure?yup..then she ask not dating?u say no..then she say this is stupid to fall in love now..now should enjoy ur life etc..my mood just turn very down..abit disappointed ba i think..whatever..i dun wan to talk about it liao..went to eat ma la steamboat..so much oil on top of the soup..yuck..haha..it not tt spicy as i tot..oh ya..happy birthday von..
wed 28/6/06:
today got bio lab practical exam..ok la..study abit only..all unto God's hand now..still feel low today..wanted to cry..but think i should just hold back my tears ba..very tired now..whatever it is..i think i should stop and rest before continue my journey..
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what should i do?
thur 22/6/06:
my whole family spend the day in SGH..y?
morning..my grandma is admitted to SGH..doc diagnose her as acute pancreatitis..which mean her pancreas is having inflammation.doc decide to do sort of a op for her..there is 15% of risk tt she might pass away..in the afternoon..it my turn to admit.to go for endoscopy n colonoscopy..later tt afternoon i was discharge..
fri 23/6/06:
doc did the op this morning..she fall in the risk side..she developed penumonia.lungs got water..now on 100% of oxygen..in ICU..i dunno..in me i hope she give up..cos it is very suffering for her.my aunts are not cooperative at all..they dun understand it might become a long term thingy..one of my aunt still say never mind if we dun employ a maid..1st 3 weeks we take turn to take care of her..after tt back to normal..what she thinking?even if pancreatitis is treated..she might become a Diabete patient.who is going to do the job?very disappointed with them..at night went out with ben n wilson..ate fish n co..hehe..after tt walk ard..then go home..wilson alight at bishan..ben carry on the trip with me..i cried..cos i dunno..i m quite tired..
sat 24/06/06:
later night going to visit grandma..kind of tired..not enough sleep..didnt sleep properly last night..dreamt of my grandma..saw her coming home..in the dream..i heard someone saying this..she dying..tt y she came to see u guys..i just woke up instantly..only can hide it in my heart n cry..
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finally it's here..
so long never update liao..nothing much happen this week..suppose to study but dunno y cant concentrate..haha..yesterday u came over my hse..hehe..enjoyed myself alot..lots n lots of hugs..like a kid..didnt eat much..only can eat plain porridge with steam fish,egg or chicken..cos today got colonoscopy and endoscopy procedure to go thru..suppose to drink the med..but after the 1st cup of oral fleet..i vomited..so didnt continue the medication..but still got the effect..keep running to the toliet..going to b a PR there soon..haha..
a few more hours i'll b admitting to get ready for the procedure..if i say i not scare or nervous..i must b lying to u..confirm will feel scare n nervous..there is risk for it..but it ok..at least i can find out what wrong with me..haha..nothing to do..find suffering to suffer..
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i passed my challenge
fri 16/6/06:
nothing much happened today..u back in singapore..so happy..hehe..miss u so much..never see u for 1 week liao..tml meeting u n von go shopping and watch she's the man..
sat 17/6/06:
work in the morning til 1pm..then meet u at somerset station..s usual..u are late.after tt we met von..watch she's the man..haha..so funny the show..after tt u left for church dinner..me n von continue our stuff..eat dinner,shop and chatting..enjoyed myself alot..thou tired..btw..rmb about the challenge u gave me last week?not to bite my nails?yeah!!!!i passed my challenge..hehe..now my nails are growing..
sun 18/6/06:
morning went for service with u..sit next to ur dad..like a sandwich..sitting between 2 guys..ur mum sit in front of us..svr is gd..about our tongue..abit tired..cos not enough sleep..when reponding time..there is this lady..suddenly sort of shouting..she sitting next to ur mum..got a shock..dunno how to react..but it linked to what happened a few yrs back when i just became christian..something similar happened..except tt this lady is sitting down while the gal in my church run ard the svr hall..after tt went home rest while..then went to j8 for lunch n watch the movie Cars..finally i watch it..very funny..very cute..after tt i went to work n u went to grandma hse..haiz..dunno what to say about u..y u so unlucky..while u on ur way to grandma hse..u met someone faint..she is a diabetic..u told me she need insulin but she dunwan guys to help..oh well..so far u met 2 real cases..me?in hospital..not in outside..if not..dunno what to react oso..
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ill
wed 14/6/06:
played game with von online..had lots of fun..haha..after tt went to work at 4pm..fall sick liao..flu..keep sneezing the whole day..blocked nose..dear..where are u now?not here to take care of me..haha..u msg me..told me the whole program is til afternoon..n since there is only one shopping centre u went there again to shop..hehe..so gd boy..never watch cars there..haha..if not..me n von will kill u..haha..
thur 15/6/06:
today work morning shift..last min my partner call my mum telling her she is sick..cant come to work..so in the end..i must work for 8 hrs instead of 4 hrs..haha..it ok..extra money only ma.. :P yeah..u coming back tml..can see u soon liao..my nails are still growing..but very short..i gonna pass the challenge..haha..bleh.. :p
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i miss u..
sun 11/6/06:
today went to your church for youth svr..after tt we went to ur hse to put ur stuff rest awhile..u gave me a challenge..not to bite my nails n allow it to grow til u come back from camp..so evil of u lor..so tempted to bite lor..k la..i'll try to pass the challenge..after rest we went to J8 to watch movie..over the hedge..finally get to watch the cartoon liao..haha..after movie,walk ard to look for my stuff..tml u going for church camp liao..i going to miss u..but it ok la..hope u take gd care of urself..
went to grandma hse for dinner..ask u along but u cant cos need to pack ur bag for camp..haiz..last min packing..hope u dun forget to bring ur impt thing..
mon 12/6/06:
7.30am woke up..msg u..told me tt u are loading up the bus..guess u setting off soon ba..10 plus while helping my mum to do set up..u msg me complaining the bus queue is very long..dying man..still at singapore side..haha..dear..u still have to b patient lor..must wait for ur turn..
afternoon went to east coast park..bbq pit 16..had my class BBQ there..thou a few ppl back out last min..but we still enjoy ourselves..keep eating n eating..finished up 150 satays, 50 chicken wings, chips, corns and more..haha..
tue 13/6/06:
today is the second day of ur camp..still havent recieve ur msg..only can wait for u to msg me..dunno what ur programme over ur side..hope u enjoy urself today..going to work in the night..haha..
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disturbance nite
last night i got a nightmare..a very terrible nightmare..this is what happened..i saw u,grandpa and one of my close frenz..i saw tt u guys are killed..n what am i doing?nothing..i just scream without voice..plus i see thru the body like x-ray like this..seeing how the bones got break n the painful death.it so scary..i woke up with a shock..then today whole day i just keep crying..i dunno y..i just scare..msg u early in the morning wake u up..told u about it..then u ask..what wrong?wake up so early?
hope tonight i'll b able to sleep well ba..
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i want to go swimming
hmm...today u got test..meet u and walked with u to ur lecture theatre..hope u know how to do the test..after ur test..u msg me..we meet up..wanted to go swimming with elaine..but rain when i meet u..so cant swim..accompany u til ard 1.55pm then u walked back to ur block for ur lesson..thanks for the hugs..hehe..
kind of worry for von..see her about to cry..feel kind of sad..cos eby today goin in for NS..i know how it feel..von..dun cry liao k?smile..i know it not easy..take ur time..k?hehe..u still got me..i love u too.. :)
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nice week
okok..quite long never update my blog liao..i'll start from sat..
SAT 3/6/06
woke up at 7.30am..bath,then leave home..took a taxi to changi jetty with all the things we bought..so heavy..then took the bum boat to ubin..reach there ard 8 plus..put my stuff liao then rest awhile..von ask if i wan to go for rock climbing..then we reach rock climbing place at 9.20am..me n u couquence the beginner wall..haha..so happy..thanks for ur encouragement..love u tree..haha..then in the afternoon..we rest at campsite..never go anywhere..but u bz with ur account..at 4 plus..due to some reason..we moved our camp site..then after tt me von and the rest of the helpers cook dinner..so fun..ard 7pm..me n von leave the campsite..ur phone is with me..but u seem to forgot about it.so i dun care just go..after awhile u called von..ask if ur phone is with me..reaching the jetty u suddenly cycled to my side n give me a kiss..so happy..cos i was waiting hoping u appear..haha..
SUN 4/6/06
today when to ARPC service at KCPSS..after service..me n von waited for u guys to come back from ubin..reach back ard 11 plus.u went home to collect the money n bath..haha..finally u smell nice nice liao..haha..after lunch is game time..the boys played wrestling and human bowling..some of the boys got cut n nose bleed while playing wrestling..went up to multi-purpose room to find u..rest awhile there..mr yam bet with the boys that he can strike..if not he'll treat the boys ice-cream..haha..too bad..instead of ice-cream..do 20 push up..cos mr yam do a strike..haha..dinner we do outdoor cooking again..but this time is fresh food..something different..after dinner is rededication nite..had fun..it about making a different..after rededication nite..sir XG sent me home..
Mon 5/6/06
today i got assessment..got UC for exam..before tt..i started to panick n cry..dunno y..but after tt i am alright liao..Yeah!!i passed my exam..so happy..meet u at macs for lunch..then after tt walk with u to lecture theatre..didnt accompany u for lecture cos got meeting..then after sch..we meet up and went to marina south for dinner..it a farewell party for Eby..he going NS on thur 8/6/2006..then after tt u played pool..then sent me home..
Tue 6/6/06
today got HS 2117 class presentation..haha..late for lesson..cos i see wrong time..missed the 1st hour of lecture..after sch..went to ur hse..do my project work..then see u played game..then after tt meet von go orchard walked ard..shop ard..bought my sandal liao..haha..dun STEP ON it anymore..i scare liao..hehe..then u n von accompany me take train to my station..on the train u n her played some game..i listened til so long still dun understand how to play..never mind..i so blur de..haha..
k..tt all for now..
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at von hse
now at von hse..waiting for tml to come..haha..going ubin for one day camp.
today suppose to meet u for lunch but after waiting for so long..u then msg telling me say u still stuck at lab..cant meet me for lunch..sian..y like this..in the end i didnt take my lunch..wait til break then eat..
then after lesson..go home pack bag n come to von hse..bought so many things lor..15 cans of canned food n 10 packets of bread..my wallet n atm is going to burst soon..no money liao..must rely on u to feed me liao..haha..
now u at ubin..can only pray tt u are alright n the weather there'll b fine thru out the camp..yeah..tml can see u liao..
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